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So I'm talking to the llamacorn about people at college.

Okay one person, who is a bit of a dick.

He is spreading shit about the llamacorn while pretending to be his friend, it's like you don't do that shit.

So yeah, we are kind of bitching about him.

I'm always everyones bitching person.

Like if someone hates someone else they always talk to me about them.

No idea why, they just do.

So just found out the dude that kissed me on saturday just added 'in a relationship' on facebook.

Like you don't fucking kiss someone at a fucking party when you like someone else.

I mean faor enough I sort of did, but he kissed me and I kissed back, like I didn't know I would be going out with someone soon.

Like I'm still fucking single, I mean yeah I still like that other dude but fucking hell it has been.4 days since he kissed me and he is in a relationship with someone else, da fuck is wrong with guys!!!!!

Seriously, I'm just going to sit here and like the original guy and forget about that dick who stole my first kiss and kill him by making him drink bleach!

Ficking hate guys, I'm done!

Okay so that guy I kissed yeah I'm sort of starting to like him which is bad, why I don't know, it just is.

Though the kiss was very nice and I regret stopping him from kissing me because now I want more...

Also he smelt very nice...

Told me friend about me liking him, she has known him for a while and said " Good luck :) however from knowing him... I wouldn't have thought he is ur type..but i guess u wont know unless u talk to him :)"
So I said "I wouldn't think he was either when I first met him but he was fun to be around, and the kiss was quite nice, and he was funny"
Then she said "Ah well that's good..maybe its the once u least expect turn out to be the right ones :)"

I do quite like him, meh, fuck life...

So last night I went to a halloween party with a few of my friends and I did something I shouldn't have...

I didn't drink a lot at all just a cup of smirnoff ice and a cup of smirnoff ice with vodka, I was only a little bit tipsy.

But then later in the night 2 of my friends started getting off with each other which I'm happy about, they will make a great couple...

However when they were kissing I went upstairs and saw the guy I was sitting on the bus with who I just met like 3 or 4 hours before so I stayed upstairs with him and everyone else that was up there sitting on the landing and stayed there for half a hour to a hour until we left...

But before we left that dude hugged me on the stairs then he kissed me twise and both times I kissed back...

But then he tried to kiss me a third time and I stopped him, this was like 4 hours after I met him...

I was totally out of character especially since I said I would never go out with anyone younger than me even if obly by a month and he is like 16 and I'm 17, 18 next month...

But I don't want to go out with him and I will probabily never see him again which I don't mind because I still like the llamacorn who I will see tomorrow.

But now one of my friends that was there, the male that was getting off with my female friend, is going to tease me about it forever and he keeps saying "So year 12" I want to shoot myself...

Right I just realised something about the whole thing with the llamacorn...

I realised that he only started getting flirty with that girl who has the boyfriend after he found out I liked someone and I said it wasn't him even though it is...

Now I don't know if he is being flirty with her to make me jealous or because he acrually likes her and wabts to try and get with her even though she is in a serious relationship...

Is this whole thing a coincidence or not???

Okay now I'm so confused...

I need to talk to my friends about this tomorrow to see what they think

I need everyone's opinion, so seriously tell me what you think it would help me out a lot

It has been a week since I last saw the llamacorn and I miss him, I just want to see him.

On the bright side we're back at college on monday so I get to see him then...

However tomorrow I do get to go to a halloween party and I'm dressing up as a zombie bride, that should be fun.
Me and 2 other of my friends are sleeping at another of our friends house after the party.

I realise I have like nothing to write about now...

But I really want to see the llamacorn... Meh...

I was just thinking back at all the guys I have liked in the past.

I also sat and thought about the guy I like now and thought, he would notice if I was gone, hell he would miss me if I wasn't at college one day.

Then I looked back at the guys I previously liked and thought they would have never noticed if I was gone, they never would have cared.

Then I realised that I was atleast doing something right in liking this guy because atleast he in someway cares for me even if it isn't in the way I want him to.

Hell today when I first woke up I actually imagined a future life with him, at that point in our relationship we had 3 kids, 2 boys with a baby girl, all under 3 years old and it made me happy to think I may actually have that one day.

I also found out for sure last night that his friend does like me, as he told me pretty clearly. But I let him down 'easy' well as easy as I could.

But now my sister and mam think that this could ruin my chances with the llamacorn because guys don't go out with girls their friends like, I asked one of my guy friends what he thinks amd he said "It depends on the guy" but I dunno of the llamacorn would be willing to go out with me after that, I sure damn hope he is...

I am one step closer to telling the llamacorn that I like him, I don't know why I just feel something inside me that says it js the best choice, I mean I'm not going to do it now,or probabily anytime soon.

I have to see him atleast a few more times before I make my mind up for sure, but I am ome step closer.

I don't know of it's the romance of the upcoming holidays that is making me want to tell him so I have a chance of being with someone for once, I feel lonely sometimes and it is nearing 18 years of being lonely for me and I don't think I can take it any more, I just want someone who cares for me.

I think he could be someone I could see myself grow old with, have a future with, have a family, I just need to know if he likes me back, I need to know, it is killing me...

So I realised I never actually said what the guy I like sent me a couple of weeks ago so since he does not know of this place I don't see the harm in it, maybe someone that reads this can shead some light on what the hell is going on.

Okay so this is how it went:
Me: I ate a lot of llamas yesterday
Him: your dead to me
i shall impale you with my awesomly hard horn
... shit that came out werong xD
Me: Next time think before you type
Him: or did i mean it tht way? 0.o LLAMACORN works in mysterious ways :L

Yeah I still have no idea what is going on here and it has been like 1 week and 4 days since he sent me that plus he has been flirty with a girl that has a boyfriend!! Like WTF?!?!?! Why can't he just realise that we are perfect for each other, Iean we both want to be vets, we both have similar likes and dislikes, the same ambitions, he is stupid even though he is really smar, most guys are like this, I will just kill them all...

Just another week has come and gone, more problems occuring with the guy I like...

On Sunday he found out I liked someone but he still doesn't know who, which is good.

At the beginning of this week I was convinced something was going on between him and this girl but apparintly sh is in a relationship, I did hate her at first because of the way he acted towards her but she is acctually a really lovely person it's no surprise she has a boyfriend and I'm sure the guy I like likes her which is just more pain and suffering for me.

Have hung round with him a bit this week which is great, today I sat next to him in biology and chemistry, i.e. The only lessons I have had today, also saw him this morning.

What I don't get is why if she is in a relationship why he likes her, Ieam if you can't have something then you just give up on trying to get it, like a little kid with a reallt expensive toy, your parents can't afford it so in the end you just give up but if you get it for christmas then it is an unexpecred thing which you are happy you got even if you never thought you would get it. Like I like him but it seems he doesn't like me, fair enough I can't stop liking him but I don't sit and try and get with him all the time, if he doesn't like me I will eventually get over him, if he does like me then an unexpected suprise comes along, so in the end I guess it's win, win.