Getting close

I am one step closer to telling the llamacorn that I like him, I don't know why I just feel something inside me that says it js the best choice, I mean I'm not going to do it now,or probabily anytime soon.

I have to see him atleast a few more times before I make my mind up for sure, but I am ome step closer.

I don't know of it's the romance of the upcoming holidays that is making me want to tell him so I have a chance of being with someone for once, I feel lonely sometimes and it is nearing 18 years of being lonely for me and I don't think I can take it any more, I just want someone who cares for me.

I think he could be someone I could see myself grow old with, have a future with, have a family, I just need to know if he likes me back, I need to know, it is killing me...