Past memories

I was just thinking back at all the guys I have liked in the past.

I also sat and thought about the guy I like now and thought, he would notice if I was gone, hell he would miss me if I wasn't at college one day.

Then I looked back at the guys I previously liked and thought they would have never noticed if I was gone, they never would have cared.

Then I realised that I was atleast doing something right in liking this guy because atleast he in someway cares for me even if it isn't in the way I want him to.

Hell today when I first woke up I actually imagined a future life with him, at that point in our relationship we had 3 kids, 2 boys with a baby girl, all under 3 years old and it made me happy to think I may actually have that one day.

I also found out for sure last night that his friend does like me, as he told me pretty clearly. But I let him down 'easy' well as easy as I could.

But now my sister and mam think that this could ruin my chances with the llamacorn because guys don't go out with girls their friends like, I asked one of my guy friends what he thinks amd he said "It depends on the guy" but I dunno of the llamacorn would be willing to go out with me after that, I sure damn hope he is...