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Okay so thks weeks summery:

Been happy all week which is like a new record since recenty I haven't been happy for more than 2 days in a row but it has been like 5 which is so great!!!!

Been spending more time with the guy I like this week, today at lunch we acctually hung out, we never hang at lunch, he has been hanging with me and my friends more since him and his girlfriend broke up... Hmmm...

Also today at college at lunch, when we hung out, he stole my shoe, I tried to get it back but I lost my grip, he made me chase him on ground floor woth one shoe on, then hid it and I had to go get it, but all in good fun...

Then tonight when we were talking he said somethings that cannot be passed on to more than the few that already know, but now I'm confused whether or not he ment it, because at forst he was like "That sounded so wrong" then was like "How do you know I didn't mean for it to be like that" like be straight forward dude, do you like me or not?!?!

Anyway it has been a very good week for me

So I been happy since Monday which is new for me because recently I have only been happy for no more than 2 days at a time, if I remain happy the rest of today I will have been happy for twise as long as I have been in a while, which is always good.

Right now I am sitting in college and it is 30 minutes till my first lesson, damn buses either get you places too early or too late, never at the perfect time. So now I have to sit here for half an hour alone because my friend wasn't on the bus and everyone else I know is either in a lesson or not at college which makes me unhappy. That is acctually why I'm writing this, I have nothing better to do.

I acctually think that is all I have to write about, so yeah, bye.

So I.have been a bit upset recently but this week things have really been better for me.
I sent away my university application away yesterday so the stress from that is gone.
Also I found out why the girlfriend of that guy I like broke up with him, apparintly this lass who liked him got really drunk and started sending messages about something or another, so I don't know if they have got back together or not (hopefully not for me) but he seems happier than he did on monday which is good.
However even if they are broken up for good and if we ever started going out it would still suck for me next year because I will more than likely live in London and he else where in England and we would barely see eachother because of price of travel

But yeah, feeling better, always good :D

Life is always bringing me down these days and I'm getting sick and tired of it.

Things with the guy I like is fucking bipolar, somedays it's great, other days I lose alll hope on ever being with him.

I'm just getting sick of it, I'm never happy for more than like 2 days at a time and it is slowly killing me.

However one of his friends are pretty awesome, she punched Twat Dan in the face and we have been talking in college and she is awesome.

However yesterday was fun, a few of us had a break before tutorial so we took over the IT Hub on ground floor and the guy I liked pretended to be a mermaid then a mermaid bunny, he stole my jacket that has bunny ears and rolled around on the spinny chairs in the little hub, it was a good afternoon.

But today has not been so good, I'm sure he said some lass left him, I didn't know he was with someone, but apparintly she always does this, like if he has been with her enough to know she always does this why would you stay with her and put up with that shit? I just don't understand human feelings, too complicated.

I want to be done with him and give up on trying to be with him but something makes me want to keep trying...

Life is always bringing me down these days and I'm getting sick and tired of it.

Things with the guy I like is fucking bipolar, somedays it's great, other days I lose alll hope on ever being with him.

I'm just getting sick of it, I'm never happy for more than like 2 days at a time and it is slowly killing me.

However one of his friends are pretty awesome, she punched Twat Dan in the face and we have been talking in college and she is awesome.

However yesterday was fun, a few of us had a break before tutorial so we took over the IT Hub on ground floor and the guy I liked pretended to be a mermaid then a mermaid bunny, he stole my jacket that has bunny ears and rolled around on the spinny chairs in the little hub, it was a good afternoon.

But today has not been so good, I'm sure he said some lass left him, I didn't know he was with someone, but apparintly she always does this, like if he has been with her enough to know she always does this why would you stay with her and put up with that shit? I just don't understand human feelings, too complicated.

I want to be done with him and give up on trying to be with him but something makes me want to keep trying...

I give up on like everything, there is no point anymore.

I'm not going to be able to become a vet, so why continue at college?

I'm not going to be able to get him, so why try?

I'm going to have a crap life, so why continue it?

Lets just say on friday my chemistry teacher made me give up on all hope of a decent life because when I asked for my predicted grade and he asked me what I wanted to be and I told him he asked me "What's plan B?" So now I have given up.

I want to try hard and do my best this year in college but when someone sucks all the hope from you you kind of just quit and die.

But that whole why continue my life thing doesn't mean I'm going to kill myself, I couldn't, just because I don't have brains, looks or love doesn't mean I don't have the most amazing friends in the world, amd even when they become successful and I'm working in like Asda brcause I can't get into university and get a decent job it doesn't matter because I want them to be happy and that will make me happy, just as long as I don't work in McDonalds I'm fine.

But the only reason I am still at college now is because of my parents, I haven't told them about friday yet but I will later and I know they still won't let me quit...

Either way the party on friday night was great even if I don't remember half of it, Adam never got my phone, except once but I got it off him very quickly so he had no time to message the guy I like, I had to fight him for it amd I have several large bruises on my arms and on above my eye, no idea how I got them, I also threw up which I sorrt of remember but not very well, and it was the first time since like 2007

So I have half an hour to kill so I'm going to write this shit...

The last week and a bit has been great, friends have been great and everything, the guy I like talks to me and looks at me more now which is good.

But yesterday I was betrayed by a friend of mine, she knows about the person I like and I asked her not to tell anyome but what did she go and do.... So I started ignoring her for the rest of the day yesterday and will continue ignorinf her until she apologises. I am seriously pissed at her.

But on the plus side I'm going to a party on friday and going to make sure I forget about the bad things that have happened over the last week.

But another bad thing... I made a deal with my friend because he wants me to tell the guy I like that I like him but I keep saying no so... I said if he can get a hand of my phone on friday he can message him, I regret that now...

Since friday I have developed feelings for someone, personally I think we are a perfect match, however...

Yesterday I found out he was upset because he found out a girl he liked had a boyfriend, lets face it that made me feel like shit!
I felt like shit all last night and up until about 8:50-8:55 this morning, because that's when I saw him for the first time today, he lifted my mood, I was still tired and felt like shit the rest of the day but whn I was near him I couldn help but be happy. So the truth is all I want is for him to develop feelings for me because he is so great and I always feel good when I'm with him.

However my friends kinda annoyed me today. Only 2 of my friends know the feeling I have for him and they annoy me now. The femal friend that knows said when one of his friends were standing right next to us "So who's this guy *guys name*" Clearly hinting that I like his friend but thankfully guys aren't that smart to get what she was doing so I'm safe there.

However the male friend that knows was even more annoying. First he kept writing on his tablet things like "*My name* <3 *guys name*' and "*my name* wants *his name*'s D or something like that, and kept saying I liked him when he was near. But he didn't say it too loud, just enough to annoy me. Then before biology I was talking to the guy I like and he came over and said "I thought I would find you here" I gave him a look and then he said "You know in a dark corner" Then the guy I like said "She's trying to get to sleep, she's a canary" That canary thing is an inside joke I'm too tired to explain, but it did help my feelings or him to develop.

Then in biology, he sits at the other side of the class room and kept mouthing "Canary" so I kept mouthing back "I'm not a canary" We got out of biology an hour early (double lesson) and when I was walking accross the first floor (came from second) he came up behind me grabbed me and popped his head over my shoulder and said "You're a canary" so I again said back "I'm not a canary"

Even after last night I feel better, in chemistry today (sit on the same table as him) he looked at me more than he usually does, so who knows maybe he may fall for me which I really hope he does because he is so great and I need someone like that in my life.

Okay so I'm just going to have a little rant before I go to sleep...

So the doctors here in England are totally crap. I mean seriously, today my dad managed to cut off half of his thumb, the half he cut off was unfound and is probabily in a million little pieces. But when he got to the hospital it took a while for him to get seen and even then they dod next to nothing.

All they did was wash it with sterile water and give him some antibiotics to take home, they barely even wrapped his thumb, after they wrapped it they said "If it's not good enough/ if you don't like ot then you can redo it yourslef' Iean what the fuck? Obviously my dad wpuldn't be able to do it himself, so that ment they were talkimg about my mam, what if she wasn't okay with doing that shit, what then, bloody morons the whole lot of them (the nhs I mean).

Plus hos wound is still open and he needs to see a plastic surgeon tomorrow to get it sorted out, I mean why couldn't they have done that today? What is so hard about giving some treatment to a man with half a fuckimg thumb that is bleeding like a bitch?

Plus on top of that because of hos injury I couldn't finish watchimg The Dark Knight which I have been wanting to watch for a while amd now have to wait till friday.

I couldn't finish watching it because I had to make up the pizza bases for tea, then wash and dry the dishes, and by the time I had finished doing that I had to make the pizzas, then had to cut my brothers pizza and then the garlic bread for everyone, then eat my own tea, then watch Breaking Bad, such a bloody busy day, can't watch The Dark Knoght tomorrow because of homework/ revision and the rest of the week I am busy with college suff :/ This damn world hates my family, it's what I get for being a McGregor

First, the new Game of Thrones season needs to come out, but this is not about Game of Thrones.

It is about winter acctually coming.

This week it has been very cold in the morning and the weather has been crap. But I like winter, warm jumpers, comfy pj's, hot drinks, soft warm toys, it's great and I love it!!!

I also hate it because of the cold, always so cold.

But hot coco is nice and you usually get more hugs in winter, and hugs are goood!!!!!

Okay so this wasn't very long but still, winter is awesome!!!!