I Give Up

I give up on like everything, there is no point anymore.

I'm not going to be able to become a vet, so why continue at college?

I'm not going to be able to get him, so why try?

I'm going to have a crap life, so why continue it?

Lets just say on friday my chemistry teacher made me give up on all hope of a decent life because when I asked for my predicted grade and he asked me what I wanted to be and I told him he asked me "What's plan B?" So now I have given up.

I want to try hard and do my best this year in college but when someone sucks all the hope from you you kind of just quit and die.

But that whole why continue my life thing doesn't mean I'm going to kill myself, I couldn't, just because I don't have brains, looks or love doesn't mean I don't have the most amazing friends in the world, amd even when they become successful and I'm working in like Asda brcause I can't get into university and get a decent job it doesn't matter because I want them to be happy and that will make me happy, just as long as I don't work in McDonalds I'm fine.

But the only reason I am still at college now is because of my parents, I haven't told them about friday yet but I will later and I know they still won't let me quit...

Either way the party on friday night was great even if I don't remember half of it, Adam never got my phone, except once but I got it off him very quickly so he had no time to message the guy I like, I had to fight him for it amd I have several large bruises on my arms and on above my eye, no idea how I got them, I also threw up which I sorrt of remember but not very well, and it was the first time since like 2007