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As everyone probabily knows like everyone I know except like 2 people are in relationships most of those relationships came as a shock, as if out of no where. Acctually now I think about it they all came when they least expected it.

But the truth is I do want a relationship, someone I can cuddle on the sofa like my sister does with her boyfriend everyday. Though I want this so bad I never allow myself to have it because everytime a half decent guy likes me I find a way to make them into something I would never want to be with.

Like right now, or atleast 10 days ago a perfectly nice guy liked me, not too unattractive, nice personality, a bit crazy but that doesn't bother me. The thing about him that bothers me is the fact that he smokes and that he isn't a virgin. I mean fair enough what normal guy is a virgin at 17 going on 18, but the people he has slept with, atleast one of the people, I mean she is a massive whore, apparintly she slept with him within a week so god knows what she did with the boyfriend she had before him, and lets face it, he is a twat.

And as they say, you are having sex with all the people the person you are having sex with have had sex with. And lets face it, I don't want to be getting into a guy who has slept with whores. I mean he knows the biggest whpre I have ever known, what if he slept with her? I mean I would be sleeping with god knows how many people, I mean not like I would have sex with him if I did go out with him. But like if in the future it got serious and we got married I would not want to be getting into that.

No matter how nice a guy he is, I don't do whores and it makes my skin crawl to even think about it.

Life has many ups and downs, somedays are good, somedays are bad, somedays go from good to bad and others go from bad to good. But the truth is you can never really know what life is going to hand to you.

Sometimes life makes you think it is trying to send you in one way but you learn what direction it wants you to go in. But the.

Like with me, at a young age I wanted to be a vet, I still do, but who knows if I will be able to become one. Another thing, e very 6 moths a cycle repeats itself. Every 6 months a guy likes me for some reason, I never want to be with them so I wondered why life sent me into this loop. But then ome day I thought of a possiable reason, maybe it is trying to make me stronger, make me able to say no to people.

Like the first guy in the loop, I originally liked him but before he asked me out I went off him but said yes because I felt sorry for him, but the next day I broke up with him because I knew I dodn't want to be with him. The day after I broke up with him he went out with my best friend at the time.

The second guy in the loop, I liked, we went out for 5 days before he moved country, I was upset, but I learned to be stronger. Not long after he met a girl, got her pregnant and now they are married with a kid.

The third guy, I sort of went on and off liking him, probabily because I felt sorry for him because he had brain cancer when he was younger, in the end I told him I wasn't interested. Now he has a girl friend.

The forth guy, this one happened very, very recently, like 9-10 days ago. He tried flirting with me but I told him I wasn't interested. Afterall I knre he didn't fit my criteria due to rumours around college. So I turned him down, we are friends now, I dunno if he still has feelings for me, but as the cycle goes, he should be getting a girlfriend again soon.

Plenty of people I know are in relationships or are pretty close to getting in one and I'm just here single. But it's not like I haven't had offers I mean just on wednesday some dude from my college was hitting on me wanting a piece of this ass, but to spare his feelings I said I don't do relationships.

The truth is I have never really been in a relationship before and everytime a guy likd me I found a reason not to be interested, which is not necessarily a bad thing.

It's just that maybe I'm not ready for a relationship or maybe I just haven't found the right guy, I dunno.

But I want a relationship so bad and have for many years but I have always rejected the offers I got, because I never thought any of them were good enough for me and hell they probabily weren't so it's good I rejected them.

Sometimes I wish for a decent guy that fit my criteria, or close enough to my criteria, would like me and I would like them back because we all need a relationship that makes us feel special.

Hell one day we will all probabily find that relationship, and those that have, good for you I'm glad you're so happy, good luck to you in your happy life, it will have it's ups and downs so stay strong.

Life can be a bitch or life can be good, life is a gamble and you just have to hope you win the game.

Just remember that.

For some people trusting others can be difficult, for others they trust easily. For me it takes a lot to earn my trust, there are only 3 people I truely trust.

If you have only been around people that were not trust worthy then you usually won't trust very easily. However for people who have been around mainly trust worthy then you will probabily trust more easily.

For me clearly it takes a while for me to trust someone.

All.I'm going to say is that of people say you don't trust people doesn't mean they're right. I mean last night a guy asked me why I didn't trust people so I simply answered with "I trust at least 3 people" he just assumed that I didn't trust when I clearly do.

People have no right to judge you if they don't know you, and try complain you don't trust.

Alright so I started talking to this dude from my college today and he totally fancied me but I don't do dating I mean it is hard enough for me to even find a guy I like enough to even consider going out with, I mean seriously I may be weird that way but I like to think me and anyone like me are special.

It seems that every 6 months from december 2011 a guy has liked, I find that weird, like a cycle that will occur till I find the right guy, so since the 4th guy in the cycle has just passed I guess I have to wait another 6 months, but I guess I can wait, I've waited over 17 years.

So yeah, no one shoulf ever like me because I'm complicated, that is all.

Love comes to us in many ways. Sometimes it is something that grows for a friend overtime, sometimes you finally realise how amazing someone is but most times it comes out of no where when you least expect it.

When you find that special person you feel something you have never felt with anyone else before and when your with them all your worries seem to disappear. Sure you have those moments where you hate each other but that only makes you stronger because hate and love are the same, you can't love without hate.

The truth is everyone dreams of that perfect relationship where it is full of love and no arguments ever occur but that is not a perfect relationship it is unhealthy because you have to have feelings of your own you have to disagree on somethings but isn't the perfect healthy relationship a one with both arguments and those perfect romantic moments?

All you ever need is someone who cares for you and loves you. That may not even be someone you are with. Friends can love eachother and make eachother happy, but the truth is if atleast one person loves you that is all you will ever need.

So everyone goes through hard times in life and we need someone to talk to but sometimes you don't want to tell your family so the only people left to tell are friends.
I have a few friends near where I live but the only friends I trust enough to tell anything to are the ones that live very far away, I trust them more than I trust anyone.
The truth is I am happy to have met these amazing people becaude if I didn't I don't know how fucked up I would be, I lovr those guys more than anything and I could not imagine my future without them.
So everyone has atleast one person in life who cares about them, luckey for me I have more than one and I feel blessed for that so thank you for being there for me I don't know what I would do without you

Right so my sisters boyfriend is here at my house and he looked up "Miley Cyrus boobs" on his Ipad and I was thinking, lesbians have all the luck. I mean they don't have to put up with that, and if they did they wouldn't mind they would want to look aswell. Also females tend to be less messy than males, which is always good, but you sometimes get messy females like my sister and you just want to hang them becaude they are messing up your side of the room and they try and say "You think that is your side? You don't get a side" I mean seriously all I ask for is a tiny section of the room for my stuff and to remain clean, but no apparintly that is too much to ask for.
If I ever went lesbian I would not have someone like my sister, I would probabily end up killing them within a year.
For a while my sister acctually thought I was a lesbian apparintly, why I have no idea but apparintly my friends thought the same thing. Listen just because a female isn't all girly doesn't mean she is a lesbian, I can be girly I just tend not to act it because it takes too much effort, I mean seriously don't judge someone just because of the way they look.
JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE LOOKS GAY DOESN'T MEAN THEY ARE!!!