Weird Life Shit

As everyone probabily knows like everyone I know except like 2 people are in relationships most of those relationships came as a shock, as if out of no where. Acctually now I think about it they all came when they least expected it.

But the truth is I do want a relationship, someone I can cuddle on the sofa like my sister does with her boyfriend everyday. Though I want this so bad I never allow myself to have it because everytime a half decent guy likes me I find a way to make them into something I would never want to be with.

Like right now, or atleast 10 days ago a perfectly nice guy liked me, not too unattractive, nice personality, a bit crazy but that doesn't bother me. The thing about him that bothers me is the fact that he smokes and that he isn't a virgin. I mean fair enough what normal guy is a virgin at 17 going on 18, but the people he has slept with, atleast one of the people, I mean she is a massive whore, apparintly she slept with him within a week so god knows what she did with the boyfriend she had before him, and lets face it, he is a twat.

And as they say, you are having sex with all the people the person you are having sex with have had sex with. And lets face it, I don't want to be getting into a guy who has slept with whores. I mean he knows the biggest whpre I have ever known, what if he slept with her? I mean I would be sleeping with god knows how many people, I mean not like I would have sex with him if I did go out with him. But like if in the future it got serious and we got married I would not want to be getting into that.

No matter how nice a guy he is, I don't do whores and it makes my skin crawl to even think about it.