name it whatever you want

i don't understand why they haven't contacted me.
why.
what is so fucking important?
sports? no
tv? no

.. i can't think of any reason why i haven't been contacted yet.

i just sit here with despair running in and out of my thoughts. there is nothing to do on the internet. and believe me, i'm almost happy about that.
i can't find solace anywhere on the internet and that's probably for the best. it went on for long enough, i guess.
and i don't even want to comment on that anymore.

i just think it's better to deal with reality, for whatever it is. of course, i'm not prepared to accept reality and i don't think a computer can help you do that.. not completely, at least.

if you can hear me. SEND ME A MESSAGE and stop this. i guess sisters .. are.. sisters.

i do not understand how families are supposed to work. no way.

so now it's 25.2 degrees and i really don't want to go outside. despite the fact that there's not one cloud out there.. and its sunny..
i hate the mazes of tall ugly buildings, smothered in ads and ugly pictures. my chest feels heavy when i think about how i'll even walk down the street.
such a task, just to go to the supermarket.

i really hope we can come back to sweden this august. i really, really hope we can.

i really hate my job.

i really hate a lot of things.

fuck.