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sitting here at school. major headache. took some medication for it. i can feel it working but.. sometimes numbness isn't enough. i don't want to numb it, i want it to go away!

shit. i can't stare at this screen anymore. my eyes can't take the brightness behind the computer screen.. sun is setting though.. soon.
worst headache.. people are making noise but that doesn't even bother me right now. it's cold.. they have the airconditioning on extremely high.
this ipod is only half a blessing. i should stop listening to music but.. then i have to hear other people's loud typing and talking and..
my back hurts so much. my matress is terrible. then start the thoughts about how expensive a mattress is.. i have the worst back pain. worst back problems but i can't afford to get them fixed. my neck is terrible too.

i can't get over how terrible the fake chicken tasted..

and i can't stop frowning! seriously why don't they have blinds around here..

have the worst fucking amount of work to do on this thing. its too hard. i don't want to sit and read 20 pages .. i'll only want to paraphrase it anyway. then i'll have to paraphrase too much and..
it's hard to know what you've left out when you have no idea what you're supposed to be doing. and don't know anything about the subject matter.
fuck. my friend is supposed to be here in about.. an hour or so. i don't know how i have gotten by .. i think ill just copy the documents onto my laptop and.. try to.. i don't know. that's probably another way of planning to give up.
i need a break but i don't want to fucking buy junk shit from the little tent they have out there. it just makes me feel like i have to eat junk food just to get some fucking energy .. it's all they sell!!!!! either have no energy .. or eat the crap.

.. i'm tired of vegetables and everything. and of bread. especially bread. might just make tacos for dinner.. though they can make me sick too. just have pasta i guess. fuck. i need someone to walk on my back. haha
it hurts so much! i'll already have terrible back pains when i grow older.. WHY SHOULD I HAVE THEM NOW!!!!! .. i feel like an old idiot. huge ass idiot in a stupid kids body.
like before, i walked into the bathroom, noticed i had crap all over my face. not going to say where. but i have no idea how it happened. people must have walked by wondering what was wrong with me.. crouching over hunched over a computer, glaring because of the brightness, frowning because of stress.. with shit all over my face. fucking ..

.. and i deleted that stupid status off fb. not that it mattered either way.

MY BACK

.. seriously.. a massage or a wii. A MASSAGE PLEASE.

.. ok so. if i start.. i could.. ok all i can see myself doing is going home. but what the fuck would that do.
i wouldn't do any work there. i have to at least try to... do something.

ok. when A comes back, we can eat the stuff outside, and then walk home. so ill just prepare to leave and wait for him to arrive.

ok. deal. no idea why things have been so weird. just have to get through this i guess. can't really stop to think about it all. just have to keep going ..

i might write later if i can't .. concentrate.