i know you need me, i can feel it. - USHER haha.

so. back again.
tired. supposed to have wine. haven't had any yet.
work in less than nine hours. friend decides to make dinner right now.
have to shower.
i happen to have .. made a bit of a mistake. judgment. but you know what. we have to start accepting people. stop stigmatising people with disorders. care for others. have to share a little love around the place. not be so selfish.
i think i'm starting to 'dislike' my roommate more and more now. it's getting kind of bad. to the level when i can just say something mean. and take it back . a few minutes later. no problem.
we know the tension is there.

talked to little sis. not for long. tried to talk on msn at the same time but i couldn't do both very well.

all i know is.. i have no idea what's happening right now. looking forward to weekend blogs and notes. have to .. do a bunch of stuff.
just. want. people to be normal. but not everyone is normal. not everyone functions. the same way. how can we just. ignore those who .. aren't exactly like us.
fuck. this is too hard.

and no one really understands. no one would.

fuck. can't wait to get my green jacket on and continue the dreams.
sew on my patch.

take a walk.

i hate living in delusion. i hate having these wafty feelings. these romantic affections. they go away after a while. just have to wait for that to happen. usually reality sets in. it's like landing. you manage to get out of there and you're thankful you didn't stay up there.

fuck it. have to shower. have to. . sing. dance. exist.
sleep tight.