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but also.. shit what kind of a life is it .. just sitting on your computer all day like this ..
how many there are of us sitting and staring blankly at our screens, hoping that this counts as something.
and yet it counts as nothing. and i just hope i dont think back to these times and think they were a waste.

i felt loved by someone a while ago. sometimes i think that all the time spent meant something.. but now all i can think is that my youth was wasted. i guess it had to be wasted on her.
better her than someone else i guess?