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Fakta

Riktigt namn: Lovise Charlen Civilstatus: Ensam
Läggning: Bisexuell
Intresse: Poesi
Bor: Kartong
Politik: Politik?
Dricker: Allt flytande
Musikstil: Rock
Klädstil: Blandat
Medlem sedan: 2012-08-30

Event

xXFallenaAngelXx har inte lagt till några event än.

ADHD..

En sjel så urolig og handlings løs.
En kropp så energisk og rastløs.
Ingenting kan vare lenge, orker ikke å tenke.
Alle tanker inni hodet er bare tull, alle toner utenfor er et vanvittig surr.
Hva skal jeg gjøre? Begynne å brøle?
Tøff, hard og uredd jente, med bein i nesa som tåler alt. Det er ”jeg” i andres øyne.
Men innerst i min tunge kropp, fylt av svik, latter og sorg, er jeg den mest følsomme og såreste person i verdens borg.
Tenke uten å handle, blir lurt av andre.
Fettceller mangler, konsentrasjonen rangler..
Hva kan jeg gjøre? Ingen vil høre..
Jeg har lest, sett og hørt om det. Alt er så likt, men ingen oppdager det.
Bare en liten en, så skal du få se, en personlighet fra en dyp, urolig og følsom kvinne, forvandles til et avslappa, uimotståelig og forstålig sinne.



Thing i Love about him

I love the way he laughs
I love the way he’s kind
I love the way he smiles
I love the way he cares
I love the way he comfort me

I love how he looks
I love how he’s smart
I love how he’s helpful
I love how he talks
I love the way he holds me when I’m sad

I love his name
I love his eyes
I love his smell
I love his confidence
I love his encouragement

I love the way he is
I love the way he loves me
I love our precious time together
I love his sweetness
I love that I love him so!



The last kiss goodbye


You said you'ld never leave me
But you lied
You said you loved me
But you never even tried
My love turns to hatred
The anger builds inside
You destroyed the world we created
Now all i do is hide
What ever happened to us
I thought we had it all
When did we lose the trust
Why did i have to fall
Now i pick my self off the ground
I'm so lonely now you're not around
I gave you my life and you tore it apart
Now I'm dead inside
Now I have a hardened heart
To heal the thoughts in mind
I'll come back stronger than before
Like I always do
Cause I cant feel any more
And I'ts all down to you
I'll never forgive you for what you've done
I hate you so much but cant erase the love
I want revenge but I should forget and move on
So I pray to the skies above
For the hate to one day be gone
Just to know that it is over
And for all the things I miss
All I want is one last kiss
So i can let it out and cry
One last kiss
The last kiss goodbye



No more sweet dreams


A young heart
So unaware
Of pain that hides in the darkness
Spread apart
Open to despair
Pain probes places uncharted
A seal of innocence
Broken
Diminished
Tears of blood
Staining the sheets of naivety
The deed is done
Dreams burn fiercely
For nightmares to rise out of the ashes
The world no longer safe
A flame extinguished
Trying to repair the damage
A soul tainted
A youth unfairly wasted
Pillows absorbing tears
Confusion and fear
My old haven now filled with dread
Please...
Don't make me go to bed...



My friend<3

A friend like you is like no other friend
Your a friend i dont regret meeting
A friend i cant scream at or fight with
A friend like you is like having no worries in my life,
A friend that i dont want to lose,
A friend i always wanted,
A friend like you is random and funny,
A friend like you is a friend that i love to death and i will never let go,
A friend like you i can tell all my secrets to.
A friend like you
A friend like you is like the little sister ive always wanted,
A friend like you is like having no dark days because you brighten them up,
A friend that opens up my eyes and helps me in times of depression and sadness,
A friend like you is a type of friend that laughs at dumb things i say or do,
A friend like you is a friend i am proud to call my best friend and for you I would give my life.
No matter what. You are my friend, and I lov u!



Screaming your name

I am lost and desperate
This pain,
I'm screaming your name
Watching the sunset
Without you by my side

I wish for this night to never end
I wish for this sorrow to take my life
I shall never feel the same again
I will always be hurt, again and again

I must make the pain go away
Make it go away
Make it disappear
It flows trough my veins
It pierces my heart

In this dark corner
I can hide,
Hide in despair
Scream her name
And take my breath away

I have to escape from this cold world
Escape to the flames of hell
The burden on my soul
Is hard to bare
The pain in my heart
Will always remain

And the lights I used to dream
They will declare my end
And love, I'll always fear
And my heart will stay leer

She'll never cry
Not one tear
When I die
That I loved her,
She still won't believe

Still I cry these burning tears
The razor blades, I don't feel
No more blood in my veins
Death has spoken:
Sorrow and decay

And when I see the clouds
That I wanted to reach
I remember those innocent dreams
They are all gone
They are all gone

But my mind still fights to live
It knows that suicide is the greatest sin
But my broken heart can't go on
It stays within this lost, bleeding soul

She said I lied
But she couldn't see the tears I cried
At the beginning,
The decision was made:
She left me to bleed,
Alone and almost dead

No more do I trust
They only use me for their lust
I have never chosen to live
But still, I was born
Still, I am here

Why can't I just get over it
Why can't I say that everything is OK
But, why, why did I have to love

Her poison is still running trough my veins
There's no antidote,
There's no cure
I was fooled by her look so pure

My life has stopped
My heart and my soul are lost
For her, I still bleed
Because of her,
Emotionally dead, I will be



Hva er kjærlighe? (dikt på norsk)

Jeg sitter her Du sitter der Sammen er vi uansett i våre tanker Jeg tør ikke slippe deg til Om jeg så gjerne vi lÅ godta alt som det er Bare få føle samhørigheten som er der Gi meg mot La meg finne den rette løsningen Som vi begge kan leve med Orker ikke gå slik i uvisse mer Våre hjerter blør Når vi ikke kan være sammen til evig tid



Alt jeg gjør, det gjør jeg for deg.(jag skriver dikt på norsk)

se meg inn i øynene, du vil se hva du betyr for meg.Om du søker i mitt hjerte og min sjel, det du der vil finne er deg, der vil du alltid være.Kjærligheten min for deg er ekte, alt jeg gjør, det gjør jeg for deg.Ta meg som jeg er, ta meg inn i ditt liv, og jeg vil gi deg alt, jeg vil ofre alt.

Ikke fortell meg at det ikke er verdt å prøve, at det ikke er verdt å dø for.Ikke fortell meg det ikke er verdt å satse, det er ikke noe annet jeg heller vil.Jeg vil gjøre alt for deg.

Det er ingen kjærlighet slik som den jeg føler for deg.Se inn i ditt hjerte, og fortell meg hva du finner.Fortell meg hva du vil.

Jeg vil kjempe for deg, det er deg jeg lever for, jeg vil til og med dø for deg.Du vet det er sant, alt jeg gjør det er for deg.Jeg vil alltid være her for deg.Jeg vil gå hele veien, resten av livet sammen deg.



I'm Stronger than you think

Trying to be strong, trying to hold it together. I'm trying to tape this opened throng, and piece it back forever.

I'm smiling on the surface, not to the core.
I'm not quite at the base, but somewhere just before.

I'm holding back the tears, for will you think me weak?
Capturing all my fears; their terrifying streak.

I'm putting on a facade, and plastering this grin.
I'm holding it together for your aid, but the despair seems to win.

I'm trying to catch a break, and trying to win this fight.
Hiding this ache; I'm keeping the sadness out of sight.

I don't know what to do, I don't know how to help.
I'm hiding emotions at a few, and trying not to wilt.

I'm lying through my teeth, and waxing over my features.
I'm hiding what's beneath; covering all my failures.

I'm not depressed, I'm just sad....
Stop giving me your best, when I know how it's bad.

Stop watching me; following me with your gaze.
I'm asking you this plea; I'm not in a haze.

I'm aware; I'm awake; yes, I'm scared, but It's nothing I can't take..



raandom

Jag vet hur det känns, att vara fångad i sig själv.
Varför är det så svårt att förstå?
Är det så svårt att se.. är det så svårt att älska mig?
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".. Ni kanske inte tror att något av detta är sant, att en människa inte kan må så här dåligt, men jag orkar inte längre. Kan inte någon bara fråga hur det är, kanske skulle allt bli så jävla mycket bättre för det här livet är fan inte värt att leva."
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".. Varför tog det aldrig slut? Han bad dem att sluta som så många gånger förr. De skrattade åt honom. Fy fan vad äcklig du är! Jävla psykfall, nästan skrek Isak. Han tittade upp men vågade inte möta Isaks blick, istället mötte han Davids. David gjorde aldrig något mot honom. Kollade bara på när de andra slog och sparkade honom. David bara stod där."
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"Jävla äckel! Bögfan! Dampbarn! Orden kastades mot han som nu stod intryckt i ett av skolans hörn. Han blundade och väntade. Väntade på att alla skulle ge sig av. Han hörde orden varje dag. Han kunde fraserna utantill. Han visste att snart skulle slagen komma. Det var det som var värst av allt. Att veta vad som skulle hända."
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