Screaming your name

I am lost and desperate
This pain,
I'm screaming your name
Watching the sunset
Without you by my side

I wish for this night to never end
I wish for this sorrow to take my life
I shall never feel the same again
I will always be hurt, again and again

I must make the pain go away
Make it go away
Make it disappear
It flows trough my veins
It pierces my heart

In this dark corner
I can hide,
Hide in despair
Scream her name
And take my breath away

I have to escape from this cold world
Escape to the flames of hell
The burden on my soul
Is hard to bare
The pain in my heart
Will always remain

And the lights I used to dream
They will declare my end
And love, I'll always fear
And my heart will stay leer

She'll never cry
Not one tear
When I die
That I loved her,
She still won't believe

Still I cry these burning tears
The razor blades, I don't feel
No more blood in my veins
Death has spoken:
Sorrow and decay

And when I see the clouds
That I wanted to reach
I remember those innocent dreams
They are all gone
They are all gone

But my mind still fights to live
It knows that suicide is the greatest sin
But my broken heart can't go on
It stays within this lost, bleeding soul

She said I lied
But she couldn't see the tears I cried
At the beginning,
The decision was made:
She left me to bleed,
Alone and almost dead

No more do I trust
They only use me for their lust
I have never chosen to live
But still, I was born
Still, I am here

Why can't I just get over it
Why can't I say that everything is OK
But, why, why did I have to love

Her poison is still running trough my veins
There's no antidote,
There's no cure
I was fooled by her look so pure

My life has stopped
My heart and my soul are lost
For her, I still bleed
Because of her,
Emotionally dead, I will be