TW alkoholism

"I'm an alcoholic.

A lot of you joke around with alcohol, thinking that it's "fun" that you're drinking to get rid of your sadness or whatever.

Let me tell you something.

Alcohol isn't fun. It might seem like all fun and games in the beginning, but the aftereffects stay for your entire life.

I'm 17 years old. When I was 14, I began drinking on a near daily basis.
In short, I became an alcoholic.
I'm still an alcoholic, although I've only drank three times within the last four months.

I'm always going to be an alcoholic. I may be sober, but I'm still an alcoholic. Alcoholism isn't something that disappears when you stop drinking.

Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic.

I'm always going to have issues when it comes to alcohol, wether I like it or not. Every time I'm close to alcohol, my entire body craves it - Even if I don't want to drink, even if I've decided to stay sober, it's like I need it.

"One beer can't hurt" is all I can think.
An hour later I'm seven beers in and I start crying over yet another broken promise to myself.

"A shot won't do anything". Two hours later, I've downed the entire bottle and I still need more, I still drink more.

I've done drugs. I've self harmed. I've had countless of addictions, but none of them are like alcohol. I don't crave drugs on a daily basis. I don't feel the need to cut myself to release endorphins. But alcohol? I don't need to think about it for my body to want it.

It doesn't matter how long I stay sober, because it can just be that one beer and then I'm back on it again. Being sober when everyone else is drunk means that I can laugh at drunk people, but it also means that I'm having an internal battle with myself not to grab that bottle.

I'm never going to be able to drink like most people do - At parties, taking a beer while barbecuing, casually drinking a glass of wine to dinner. No matter how much I fight for it, alcohol always wins. I'm not going to be able to have that night at the club with my closest friends on my 18th birthday. I'm not going to be able to have a healthy relationship to alcohol - Never.

Alcohol isn't fun. Alcohol is dangerous, far more dangerous than any drug I've taken. You don't realise it to be a problem at first, but then when you try to let it go you find out it's impossible.

Alcohol is not fun. My actions as a 14-16 year old is going to stay with my until I'm 80. Do you really want that? This isn't a question about staying strong, or having a tolerance. No one is invincible, and especially not when it comes to alcohol.

Take care of yourself."

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Hoppas länken funkar lol

Det här är exakt vad jag tänker/tycker. Är inte alkoholist själv och aldrig varit, men hela min uppväxt har varit runt två alkoholister.
Det här varför det inte är roligt med att säga "Im gonna be a 24/7 wine mum♥♥♥"
"Jag kommer så bli alkoholist när jag blir 18♥333" Liksom Aa nej hejdå det förstör ditt och andras liv.
Självklart är det jättesvårt att komma ut problemet om man faktiskt ÄR alkoholist, men är inget roligt med vara det och förstår inte varför man skulle driva om hur man ska bli det.

Dricker själv ibland, gör väl dom flesta. Men ah är inget kul med just alkoholism iaf. Vet inte hur jag ska förklara vad jag menar men ah Shelley är bra på det iaf. ♥