I long to be like you

Stay low.
Soft, dark, and dreamless,
Far beneath my nightmares and loneliness.
I hate me,
For breathing without you.
I don’t want to feel anymore for you.

I long to be like you, Sis
Lie cold in the ground like you. Did
There’s room inside for two and I’m not grieving for you,
I’m coming for you.


I just want to take you in my arms again
Kiss your tears away and embrace you so hard that you lost your breath again
I want you to lie in my arms again when I dry your tears and whisper that everything´s gonna be alright
I want to hear your voice again, feel your breath against my neck when you telling me that everything is gonna be okey.
I want you so much to come back darling!
I miss you so much and it hurts so bad to don´t know if I ever gonna see you again
My baby I miss you so much I hope you know how much I love you, even in death

You said that everything´s gonna be okey, but you´re wrong!
How could it ever be okey without you?
How will I ever heal without you darling?
You were my everything!
Why did you leave me alone here?
Why didn´t you let me take care of you?
I could have heal you with my love

Do you remember how we use to say forever?
You and me against the world
Now I have to take the world alone
Without you

I hate myself
Cause I didn´t save you
I hate myself so much
Cause I didn´t protected you enough
I can´t stop hating me
Cause I wasn´t there and stoped you!

I still love you
Now and forever you stay in my heart <3
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