When?

When will it stop?
When will the pain go away?
When will my tears stop falling?

When will the shame go away?
When will I survive without hurting myself like this?
When will I stop go behinde my friends back?

I just wonder WHEN will I be the girl I dream of when I was a little child?
A girl that know what she want, Know who she is and how she get what she want?

I have so wonderful friends around me
I know you be there when I need it
If I just call! But i don´t
I wont hurt anyone or take someone down with my pain
So I try to take it all of myself
But in the end....I know I hurt you anyway when I hurt myself.....

So I just wonder
When will it stop?