never anybody there.

Today i am sadface. //

keep talking straight to myselfe tru the air, as if somebody acctually were there listening.
Tried to sing happy songs, as if someboody were listening.
Keep smiling to nobody, as if somebody was here looking at me.

Keep telling myselfe that this is how its suppose to be.

But there's nobody there.
There's never anybody here.
and if it were . Would that make me happy?

Keep puching those tears, keep telling myselfe that this isnt the time to be crying.
Keep looking tru the window, as if somebody may come.
keep hugging the blanket, as if it would turn out to be a human being.
Keep looking at the phone, as if somebody were trying to reach me.

But there's nobody. There is never anybody.

Did i make a mistake , when i made up my mind, to never interfere with another human being?
When i made up my mind to never care ?

Was i wrong to turn myselfe away ?
was i wrong to break all bonds?

Then again, i ask myself. Witch bond?
all those people that turned me down? Those who faked frendships?
those who stabbed me in the back?
All those wasted years of my life?

They will never be given back.
People change. Thier dreams changes. Thier thoughts changes.
Just in an instant. One human life, could change. it sweep away faster than the strike of lightning.

But people never seem to understand one another. Never seem to see the importance of a human's life.
They toy wtih each other, casting us around. Never, NEVER seem to care.

is a human life, suppose to be played with ? are your feelings suppose to wither because of ''somebody told you to'' ?
Are you to forget about your closest ?
are you suppose to shut out love?

I never care about where you came from. i never care about your past. i never care about wheter You are a boy or girl. your choice of act. your hobbies or wether your rich or poor.
I never care about what you're doing or what you're thinking.
Because thats your life.

What ever you do, if it makes you happy, then its your choice.
I ONLY care about your happines.

// Hälften baserad på mina tankar pga min mardröm inatt.