Those things that reminds you

That friend who looked me deep in the eye and said "you are nineteen when are you gonna live"

That person that told me "you are twenty one these are those years you are supposed to live"

I just want to keep people happy and now more than ever i don't wanna think a single though that says "i want...." i only want one thing

To not be like the woman who put me on this earth

Never do i want to be like her

So i will forget myself in order to become a vessel to store peoples problems, dreams and worries

I don't have my own dreams but i know every single one of those around me, and i will try my best to help them achieve them

I don't have any problems i do not worry but i carry each heavy thought i have been given, i soothe their mind and help them carry the weight

Each problem has a solution i say, do not worry it will consume you i say

Someone tried to reach me get to the core hidden away, but in that instant my face went pale my voice cold "never will i reveal that thing it reminds me of the woman i despise the most, the ugliness must be keept away"

"you remind me so much of your mother"
"you are just like mom"
"you look just like her"
"you got that from your mother i bet"

Each word makes me try harder, each word makes me wanna tear my body till i look nothing like her, i try to change everything that can remind annyone of her

I will never be like my mother, i will keep the promise she never kept to herself

She told me as a young girl "if i ever turn out to be like my mom shoot me"