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Du betydde alt for meg
Jeg var forelsket i deg
Jeg trudde du var snill
Jeg likte deg
Jeg tilogmed kanskje elsket deg
Men jeg betydde ingenting for deg
Det endte bare med at jeg ble såret
Du likte meg ikke
Du var ikke snill
Ikke litt en gang
Du såret meg hele tiden
Du lot meg gråte
Å du flirte av meg
Når jeg var trist, så lo du enda mer
Hvorfor likte du meg ikke?
Hvorfor hatet du meg?
Hva gjorde jeg galt?
Bortsett fra å elske deg ..

I cannot tell you how much I love you
it would take far too long
but I’ll say it again and again:
you are my whole world and my best friend
and when I’m with you,
nothing can ever be wrong.
Thirty-one days together.
To me, that is a surprise.
I never thought I would see
love for me
in someone else’s eyes…
but I do in yours.
Happy anniversary.
Hoping for many more..

jag är så jävla trött på folk, som altid trycker ner en, snackar skitt om dig.
er så jävla trött på at farsan, ska bli arg for alt, alt jag gör är fel..
jag är så jävla trött på det livet jag lever, trött på kämpa..

jag har kämpat länge nu, nu är jag trött, trött!! orkar ej mer, alt är bara svart.
Jävla trött på livet, trött på alla lögnene.
Pallar fan ej mer! det är ingen som fattar hur jag har det, inget som bryr sig , ingen som hjälpa ,ingen som fattar! alla snackar bara skitt.
Låt mig bara va, ni fattar fan ej hur jag har! så dra åt helvete o låt mig va. har du inget bra säker o säga, så va tyst då! bätre det an at ni ska trycka ner mig hela tiden!
ni ser ej, ni fattar ej!
Jag lever her i min ensamhet, i min mörka värd, der alla ger fan o bry sig..






Sofijah — ingenting
Så länge som jag kämpat utan att få nåt tillbaks.
Ingenting som hjälper mej, har bara tomma ord kvar.
Jag är inte värd ett dugg, inte luften som jag andas,
Jag är ingenting längre, nej, inte för de andra.
Jag sitter för mej själv och vill vara I min ensamhet,
Ingen bryr sej om det för det finns ingen som vet.
Dethär är smärta, av allra högsta grad,
Jag vill bort härifrån, leva som du och ha det bra.

Sover aldrig på natten, ligger ensam och tänker
På allt som har hänt, vad som ska hända dagen efter
Jag vill ställa några frågor, 'hur lång är min livstid?'
Misshandel och sorger, vad är det för ett liv?
Är det så man ska leva för att vara en I'mängden,
Sån som ingen vill ha och en sån som ingen märker?
Jag är krossad, jag har förlorat mej själv,
Jag har förstört mej själv och allting igen.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/sofijah-ingenting-lyrics.html ]
Som vanligt så känner jag att livet är hopplöst,
Har det någon mening, för livet är meningslöst.
Lyckan I mitt liv har jag glidit ifrån,
Känns som att jag aldrig varit glad men som att smärtan kom igår.
Jag fejkar mina skratt och jag försöker att le,
Jag går ut och kollar runt mej men det finns ingenting att se.
Jag har förstått att jag inte passar, inte ska vara här.
Jag tittar ner emot marken, kanske finner lyckan där.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far

Jag har försökt så många gånger, men nu har det gått för långt
Tabletter hjälper inte, nej, ingenting sånt.
Allt som jag behöver, det finns här framför mej,
Men jag kan inte få det, jag kan aldrig få en ängel
Kärlek och trygghet, det är allt jag begär
Jag kommer aldrig glömma smärtan, jag lovar, jag svär.
Jag är rädd för att leva, vågar inte träffa nån,
Jag är rädd för att bli sviken och att allt ska börja om.

Men det var inte jag som lekte en fucking jävla lek
Med mej som en leksak och vapnet var kärlek.
Förlorad kärlek vet vi alla hur det känns,
Men resten av mitt liv kan man ta som ett skämt
För det kan knappast vara sanning att dethär är mitt liv,
Det måste vara nån slags tanke som jag lever I.
Dethär är sjukt, ni förstår inte ett skit.
Jag önskar ljuset bara kunde hitta hit.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far

Where are you when i need you? . you are never here. I need you mom, i miss you mom. why did you left me here alone. cause i really need a mom, i realy need your love mom. why do you always push me away?.

i stand here alone with so many questions, but i'm afraid to aks. questions about, why dind't you care, why did you left, why,why,why!??????? But, i have one thing i really wanna know is the true, only the true about everything, about my childhood, abour ''mother's love to your child or your only daughter.''
Mom stop push me away, stop lie to me.. tell me the true. MOM! why do you never say that you here for me, or that you miss me, or that you love me, why do you never aks after me, when you are talking to litle brothes, you care more, much more about them, it's like that i'm invisible, you don't see me, you don't here me. I know that you moved to a another coutry, and you just left here, i did care what i feel, when left me..

Mom, i need your here, i'll always need you. I need your love, like you loves your sons, i want that love from you...

You ever care enought to call, writte to me, never. you say to others people that you gonna talk or writte to me, but, do you do it!? NO!!!.. you don't.. you are really good at show how much you love the only daughter you have...


I just want a mom, a mom to tell me that she loves me, miss me, and be here for me, when i need to talk, or just a hug from my mom. just one only, and show me your love..


The day i where born, you push me away, you hated me. and the day you found out that I had Hearing problems, once again you push me away..
you dind't care about children, you dind't even have time to buy food, clean the house, or much more, Only thing you did was sitting on your big, fat ass, on the computer and play WORD OF WARDCRAFT and smooking cigarettes..


kommer mer.

Mother I ask for your love
I miss our travels and talks
I miss our times
All I ask is for us to be friends

Mother cradle me your baby
I am just asking for your kindness
I'm longing only for a peaceful time with you
All I'm asking is not to be pushed away

Mother I ask for your hugs
to mend my broken heart
caused by my love
All I'm asking for is to be embrace

Mother I say to you
give me your time so I can ask
questions I have been holding for years

Mother I ask for your kisses
soft as a dove
I ask you to help me grow

Mother I ask for your attention
Just this once
I only ask for your time

Mother I ask for a part in your heart
Not to be pushed off

Mother don't give me your anger
I don't want your silence
Mother I want your smile

Mother I wish
I wish for your stories
not our problems
I wish for us
I wish for you

I wish I had a mother,
That would love me the way she should.
I wish I had a mother,
To accept me for who I am.
I wish I had a mother,
Who wouldn’t belittle me the way she does.
I wish I had a mother,
Who would trust me some of the time.
I wish I had a mother,
That would listen to me when I’m in pain.
I wish I had a mother,
Who would trust me just abit.
I wish I had a mother,
Who would help me when I asked.
I wish I had a mother,
Who didn’t criticize me the way she does.
I wish I had a mother,
Who would understand the pain she’s caused
I wish I had a mother,
Who didn’t have to be right all the time.
I wish I had a mother,
Who would see the good that I’ve done.
I wish I had a mother,
Who wouldn’t make me beg for her love.

Sometimes I just wish, I could run away and hide.
No matter where I go though, these feelings stay inside.
How can I stay here and live each day a lie,
When all I want to do is close my eyes and die?
I see the pain I cause you, with every tear I shed.
I plead with you now mum, let me go instead?
I wish I could take you with me, to a happy place,
Whether it exists though, is time for me to face.
Can I ask for your forgiveness? For you to set me free,
It may seem ungrateful, but this life's not meant for me.
Thank you for all your love, for all the time we shared,
It means the world to me, to know that someone cared.

I hate myself for this
I hate this person I've become
I hate who I am and who I thought I would never be
I hate my father and mother for making me this way
I hate the selfishness I have now become
I hate the endless pain I put people through
I hate the way I hide myself in this pain
I hate the crazy world Im living in called my life
I hate when my friends suffer because of my problems
I hate the fact that everything I've worked
so hard not to be is what defines me
I hate that people cant see who I really am
I hate that my heart is broken with no one to put it back together..

i hate this stupid world
and the place i have in it
i hate this stupid house
and the life that its finished

i hate this computer
so ragged, so slow
i hate all the things
that i do not know

i hate the way words
can bring a person to their knees
i hate that hearts
break so easily

i hate that people die
when theyre oh so young in age
i hate it when my book
is oddly missing a page

i hate it when you cry
and won't tell me what's wrong
i hate the way people write random stuff
and sing it and call it a song

i hate that life sucks
and always will for me
i hate it that we can't
go on living happily

i hate it that i like you
when you so obviously don't like me back
i hate it when my parents
never cut me any slack

i hate it that im breaking
and nothing can fix the truth
i hate my wounds for healing
and not staying to give proof

i hate that i hate so many things
yet i don't regret a bit
i hate it that i don't always hate the days