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I am alone...

Yes today will acutely be a "happy" Post from me. For the moment I am with one of by Bestest, est... est Friends c: and Listening to One of my favorite Bands, A.c.t (Look them up! They are awesome! Trust me) While she is painting A woman C: And for the first time in long I'm feeling Happy! Yesterday, I was on the cinema with my brother and his friends, and looked at, The amazing spider-man 2! It was really good! a bit to long but totally worth the Money :D So I guess that is one of the reasons why I am happy :3 Just sitting here with Fanny (My friend if you didn't Figur xD) and Spending the night at her house just makes me happy c: She is a really lovely person! She is like my little sister I never had, and for the I love her!
But yeah I just felt that I had to post this moment. So i can remember it! For I am happy! And, I love it!

FUCKING INSOMNIA ... Have you ever heard of the "illness" Insomnia? it's a Mental illness that can cause you to almost never sleep ... I remember back when my mother passed away (More of that will be heard of later) But it's about six years ago ... And, I remember being up for about 72 hours strait. I wanted to sleep, but I couldn't ... Then, I pass out for about two hours only to wake up even more tired. This kept on going for four years and then I found "Love" as I called it... (Biggest mistake of my life) But I have to admit that I got happier ... which made my sleeping better. WELL FUCK ... here I am single for soon to be a year ... And, I hate it ... I hate being alone ... Feeling that empty space in my heart is the worst feeling Ever ... I really hate being alone ... And as it feels now. I think I will be Single forever ... Because, I am a really passionate person ... In all my relation ships, I't has felt like I am the only one who is willing to give EVERYTHING ... for my partner... *Now I don't know if this is the truth ... But it feels like it* I don't know ... Becouse ... I believe in true Love ... That there is this "Perfect" Pertner for me out there somewhere Waiting for me to "Rescue" him/her ... But I guess I'm just living in a fairytale that will never come true...
Well ... I got of topic xD ... But yeah ... This is one of the reasons why I have insomnia ... I over think things too much ... And, I mean WAY too much ... It will probably be a long night for me tonight ... So if you are reading this in the current time and day 2014-04-25. Then, Please. Text me ... Talk to me ... because ... I hate being alone...

I wish I was capable of flying ... I wish I had the power to grow a pair of wings so I could just Fly away from everything ... Just fly away for like ... I don't know ... Ten Years? Just so when I return ... NO ONE will remember me ... I'm so tired of everything ... I don't know why ... But I just want to disappear ... And, no one to remember me ... I Guess I'm just having a bad day or something ... But still ... This feeling digs deep in to me ... And, I know it will stay for a wail ... (LIFE)

I've been sitting in my room with Nothing to do for the last hour... I don't feel like Playing Any games... I thought of playing Minecraft Feed The Beats, But yeah... No interest so far... I really don't know what i shall do with my life any more. Sure I have some really good friends that i can meet and greet (Bad pun sorry for that) But in these "late" Hour's I can't stop feeling sad... For i know that in this moment! I am alone ...I got no one by my side to cheer me up... I have looked at every thing that i want on the YOUTube's, so i got nothing to bury my mind in... And on top of that! The only thing i want to do is to find some one i can call mine... Someone to love... Someone to snuggle with... Someone that will say "I Love You" With The same amount of passion that i want to say it in...... feels like I will never find that person... Which makes me even more sad...