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Sticks and stones...

sticks and stones may break my bones...

“Hi my name is Lucy, I am 15 years old and live in Blackpool. I have a mother, a father and a younger brother. I have a good life, but... I am not your ordinary girl
The reason why is a secret...but soon you will understand why...”

“My usual day starts like this:”
Lucy wakes up by her alarm clock and goes downstairs to eat breakfast, just like usual. Her family are there like normal. Then after breakfast, she goes up again and getting ready for school.
She goes to a privet school here in Blackpool. It is a small school, but there are many students there.
The school also has a secret... You will get it soon
Lucy arrives at the school 8:50 pm. She takes her stuff from her locker and go to the classroom. But this time it is different... Her desk is in the back corner of the room and everybody is staring at her... She goes to her desk only too see that somebody had scribbled on it... It says “whore, bitch, slut and other mean things”

“What? Why? Don't tell me I am the target?”

The teacher walks in and the students sits down. The teacher pretends that it is normal to Lucy to sit in the corner... Even the teachers are in this game...
The bell rings. And it is time for break. Lucy hurries out of the classroom and rushes to her locker. When she opens her locker, some notes fall out. She picks one up and reads it out loud

“ I hope you die...”

She is in chock. How could she become the target? Yesterday she was with her friends on the break, but now they ignore her. Is this the price she got for helping Rod? The last target?
The bell rings again and she hurries to class and pretends as nothing has happened. But deep inside she just wants to cry...

It has gone two and a half month since then... She is still bullied but she has a new way of handle it... You will see how she deals with it...
Her parents doesn't know what is going on in that school and they ignore the guts that tells them something is wrong. They just want to see the good things and not the reality...
Yet another day for Lucy that goes like this:
She wakes up and go downstairs to eat breakfast, her family is there and is already eating. When she is finished she walks up again. She looks in the mirror and says to herself:

Just one more day and then they will stop....

She gets ready for school.
When she arrives, she sees that her locker door is gone and her stuff too... She looks around and finds them, but they are destroyed and dirty...
The bell rings
She walks to the classroom and hear her friends laugh

Lucy goes to them and say:
Why are you ignoring me? What have I done?

They laugh and Lucy is chocked. She thought they were friends, but they sure are not …
You guys did this!

She throws her books at them... The girls get angry and pushes Lucy down. The others just look at them and laughs. Lucy sees Rod walking past by and look at them. He ignores them... Lucy feels her heart break.
Someone says the teacher is on his way. The girls stops and walk away from Lucy.
Lucy rushes home, the only place she can be safe...

“ I can't take it any more, why wont they stop? It has already bin more then one month.”

Lucy is all alone in the house... It is quiet... She breaks down, she cries, screams. But nobody hears... She stands up again and walk to the kitchen and takes out a knife... 1, 2, 3, 4 cuts. She sees the blood running down. She washes the knife and put it back where it belongs. She goes to the toilet room and dry her arm with some paper and then flushes it down the toilet. She walks to her room and change jumper. Nobody knows and nobody will...
It is weekend now and Lucy can be at peace. Her family has gone shopping. Lucy goes rarely out now days. She barely laugh, smile and talks... Her family are suspicious, but they do not talk about it with her.
She decides to stop all her pain today... She goes to the kitchen and takes a knife and a bottle of beer. She goes to her room and take some pills with the beer and then cuts herself. The cuts are deep and she feels the pain go away... She is scared and screams for help, but nobody hears as usual.
When her family is home they call for her as usual, but this time she doesn't answer... They don't suspect anything so they all go to the kitchen and prepare lunch. When it is time for lunch, you don't come so they walk to your room to see what you are doing. But when they open the door they get chocked and sees there little daughter lying on the floor...They shook her but she never waked up. Her family hurries to call 911
The doctor comes out and says:

I am sorry about the words I am about to say, but your daughter have been dead for some hours... There was nothing we could do...

Her family breaks down in tears. Their little daughter, their perfect daughter took suicide, but why? It has gone one week sense Lucy died... And the police is still under investigation. After two weeks and a half, they come to Lucy's family and says:

We found a letter to anyone who finds it... Shall we read it, if it is okay for you?

Lucy's parents nod.

“ To anyone who finds it... I am lost and can't find myself, I don't know what to do or what to say... I don't know what is right and what is wrong? But one thing I know is that everybody hates me... And so do I... You will hate me too... because I am your ordinary girl with a good life... Yet I am depressed. There are others who have it so much harder then me, but I still choose to end my life... I am so sorry! Please forgive me?”

Lucy's family are in tears and also some of the police...
The next day the news about Lucy's death is out and everybody is in chocked. No one thought that the bullying would go so far, but it did...

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