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dear diary, once apon a time, i met a boy, he was pretty, he was beautiful. Not only in looks, but also on he's inside. He was smart, he was nice, he was honest, he was faithful, he was understanding and most inportant of all, he was my best friend. After we'd been together for a while, i started taking him for granted, i shouldn't have. I went out, with other boys, i asked everyone how they were feeling, exept him, i started sending naked pictures of myself, to strangers thrugh the internet. I lost him, i really did. But he never left me, i left him, For his own good, i left him because he was worth so much more then i could ever give him. I tried to drug away the emptiness i felt when i left him. I thought it would help. I was so wrong, i tried so many things to fill up the space he left insinde my soul and heart. I was so dumb, and naiv. I thought i could live without him. I thought he was gone forever. But when i told him that i still loved him, he said he never stoped loving me or beliving in uss, i guess fairytales do exist, becasuse he is my prince, he never left me, even though i left him. He saved me, so many times, from the monsters. But this kind of monsters are not easy to save someone from, because the monsters im dealing with, they live inside my head, and i can't thank him too much for saving me, saving my life, from the people who tried to hurt me, and last but not least, he never left me or stoped loving or caring for me. Thank you god, for giving me one more chance. I dont belive in you usually, but some kind of higher power is there, and i want to thank you, who or what ever you are. I see this as something special, because i could never forgive me if I was the one who got taken for granted or treated like i treated him. I know that he will never feel lonely again, because no matter what happens, i will always be there for him, and i will never take him for granted again. This, is what i think you call true love. Thank you for letting me taste his lips on mine again, i am forever thankful for that, because i never thought it would happen again. I love you, i always did. Now, tomorrow and forever.