just afraid I might never understand myself

I find myself in our insignificance
And I'm just afraid I might never understand myself
Something in my mind needs my heart to find something real
To walk some more before I'm down..... This struggle has just begun
I see a smiling face through this thick glass wall
Bring my heart down.
Through my hands to watch them fall
I swear I'll watch them fall. While the colors fade
And the feelings rage for the need
To be loved inside us all
So tell me how your callousness made you strong
And a love measured by the size of the scars
Does the dream of self worth twist you inside?
Does the emptiness of this room spin your mind?
Relentlessly I strive... falling short. Falling in love. Explode