Paralyzing angst

Staring into the void,
In the back parts of my mind
Is there any part left to salvage
Any whole piece of mine?

My fingers pacing over the scars
In an uneasy, restless way
With eyes so empty,
Depression makes me blind

Paralyzed by anxiety,
I even forget to breathe
But in my mind the screaming
And the images never leave

They say I should think of
Times when I felt good
But now I can't remember
And none of them ever understood

I have ghosts that haunt me
They push me towards the edge
Along the years I've learnt to cave
To bleed instead of sorely fedge

The world is on my shoulder
My mind is soon too shattered
I fear it can't be saved
Thoughts saying I never mattered
No, they're never well-behaved

So leave me alone,
Please go away
I cannot bare this weight
Let me heal and
Let me feel
Something other than pain