The weakness

A habit to be something weak
as the falling becomes a way to seek.
Some people medicate the pain away,
in my world, those thoughts will stay.
I promised you, but it cannot hold,
it's getting warm outside, and inside cold.

So I felt the blades strength, and the pain on the inside became weaker.
And I worry about my life's length... But in the end, I'm the life's seeker.