Monotonia

The feeling of touching someones skin is something i've forgotten about. Does it Hurt to touch another human?
Forgotten how the feeling of being embraced in someones arms feels like.
Feels like everything i do, is annoying to everyone.
Everything i touch falls apart.
Forgotten the feeling of a true friend, someone who ask's me about my dreams and goals in life.
Even the feeling of someone calling me on the phone, no one ever says my name, it's been so long now, that i think i've forgotten my name.
No one would even know if i died tonight.

Sometimes i get the feeling that everything would be better if i didnt exist.