PAiN

I wish you coud see
the pain that I feel
in my heart
it's so surreal
My head is saying
"the pain, it won't stop"
while my heart is saying
"it's not your fault"
The feeling from when you left me
it's hate, just hate

You hurt me to the length of no repair
For a daddy there is no spare

You are supposed to love
But all I could see was this pile of blood
The blood was mental
and it was physical
It was real
so surreal

You would not spare my feelings and thoughts
and I would scream non-stop

The physical pain was so surreal
but all you told me was to feel
Feel the pleasure you felt
But how could I?
I hadn't even started to grow yet.

If I saw you now I would probably scream
Scream as hell and hit you for real

I started to wonder "what the hell am I thinking?"

Daddy if you look above
you will see and realise
that it's not you that I love.