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Jag kommer vara vid min flickväns plats hela veckoslut. Jag hoppas at vi har rolig. ^^ Idag jag har bara spelat i Facebook och lyssnat Avenged Sevenfold.

I started to read my and Jonathan's msn conversations and all what I can say, is that I really miss him too much already. I just don't know how can I go on in my life without him. Okay, I know that I just have to because I think that Jonathan want's us to go on even, if he isn't here with us. I just hope that I could get him back even, if I know that it's impossible. ;_;

Maybe I should try to forget him and go on but I know that I can't ever forget him. I just don't even want to forget him and all those things, which he has done to me and that how much he has helped me. He was there, when I needed someone, who I could tell what I feel. Yeah, we got to know each other on last August but still he was one of my best friends. I told him things that I didn't tell my friends who I have known years. I don't know... There was just something in him that made me talk about everything, but I didn't feel bad. It was so easy to go talk to him and tell everything, what I wanted to tell. Once... I had very bad feeling and I didn't say anything about that to anyone but then when he came to msn, I told him everything. Yeah... Maybe I should really try to talk about things to my girlfriend again but it will take time... It would be good thing, if I had someone, with who I can talk about everything... *sigh* I can't stand this...

I don't know what to do or think about this all... I just hope that all this would be some fucking bad nightmare, but I know that this is not...

Maybe I just go to sleep soon... I have to wake up at 6.30 tomorrow... Have to go to work even if I don't want to go...

God natt