Do you...

Do you ever wish you could be something that your not? Like, you want to wear a style, but you know it's not you. You're sweet and girly and you want to be punk, but you're not. You want to be it, but you know that you're not it.
You don't know where you are in the world, where you stand. You're not punk, but you don't want to be girly. What are you then? Are you always going to be girly, or will you someday be what you want to be?
That's how I feel. I want to punk, but I'm not. I think punk people are awesome, and I want to be it, but I'm not. I'm not even preppy. I wear pastel colors, yet I play electric guitar and wear fingerless gloves. I'm like a mixture of both. What am I? I