I remember you...

you are still in my thoughts, even if I deny it and try to push aside the memories that you left behind for me.. The memories are still brand new, so fresh that it feels like I can touch them if I close my eyes and reach out my hand against them.
trying to forget, trying to succeed in finding the right mood, so I can find the courage to try again!
trying to find a light in my darkness, A light that can make me feel good again .. to wake up every morning and be able to get up and face the truth .. to face the new day .. but..it hurts.
But it's a pain that I could get used to, because the pain is the only thing that gives me proof that you actually exist,...