I feel so distant from everybody.. i feel like im losing contact with everyone.. i dont even know what i want anymore.. there is so much i wanna do.. but my age and money limits it.. i have to start school again.. which means i will be going back another year, bc i chose a crappy fucking school..
I feel like i dont wanna go to school anymore even though i know i have to.. i want to.. but i just wanna get on with my life.. i wanna travel.. i wanna see more bands.. i dont want to be at home with a mother who hardly knows i exsist.. she has done a lot for me and im grateful for it.. but for internet friends are more important then me...
I want a job... i dont wanna sit in a school anymore.. i have done like 3 extra years.. and i dunno how much longer i can cope..
I know i want a lot but i also wanna say sorry.. sorry to the ppl i have hurt.. i never intended to do so.. im sorry for being so disnt from everyone.. i just dont know what else to do anymore...
I try so hard to keep the ones i love close.. but i seem to always fail..
Yesterday I went to a car show with my ex( which was fucking awesome I found the car of my dreams!!) then this morning a friend of mine says I'm in a vid and I look fucking retarded the scary thing is the person filmed just me n my ex right in front of us I didt even know I was beig filmed.. :c
I'm standing there talking to my ex and nodding my head.. Argggggh....
