I feel so distant from everybody.. i feel like im losing contact with everyone.. i dont even know what i want anymore.. there is so much i wanna do.. but my age and money limits it.. i have to start school again.. which means i will be going back another year, bc i chose a crappy fucking school..
I feel like i dont wanna go to school anymore even though i know i have to.. i want to.. but i just wanna get on with my life.. i wanna travel.. i wanna see more bands.. i dont want to be at home with a mother who hardly knows i exsist.. she has done a lot for me and im grateful for it.. but for internet friends are more important then me...
I want a job... i dont wanna sit in a school anymore.. i have done like 3 extra years.. and i dunno how much longer i can cope..
I know i want a lot but i also wanna say sorry.. sorry to the ppl i have hurt.. i never intended to do so.. im sorry for being so disnt from everyone.. i just dont know what else to do anymore...
I try so hard to keep the ones i love close.. but i seem to always fail..
rebecca:( älskar dig oxå, precis som grönhuvud här nere!!!! och och jag vet inte va jag ska säga:/ men asså du ska inte må dåligt:O när vi har jobb nästa år kan vi göra mer!! du och ja!^^för du e mig så jävla nära och du e viktig och allt ja många och fast hade kunnat skriva fler!!!
så e det något så smsa (btw förlåt för mina svara just nu(sms), men måste fixa pappas bil o sånt. sen kan vi ha lov på riktigt du och jag!^^) ÄLSKAR DIG!!!!!!!!!!! hur gay det än låter!:O fast du vet att du e ju faktiskt en av dom få jag kan krama!!! så du betyder mycket och jag ha tillit till dig!!!
btw förlåt för denna konstiga kommentar! men du e viktig o då blir det knas:S
I feel bad bc im tired of doing nothing, and you out of all people know everything.. the people i have lost and tried so hard to keep them in my life.. you know i try my hardest to make everyone happy.. you know that if i ever get happy over one thing there is always something that takes it away..
and im sorry i tell you everything its just so much that i wanna do.. so many ppl i want bk in my life but i know it will never happen.
