"I don't know where to begin
I've thought about this day so much and thought of so many things I've wanted to say
but now, now I can only look at you like the pictures I spend hours staring at
I don't think I've ever smiled so wide as when you were holding me up
I was given a picture the other day of a past birthday
We were together on our back deck
I remember.
You were covered in powdered sugar from the donuts you were eating
I've always loved watching you smile
Do you remember the mornings when we woke up early to ride bicycles to on the board walk or the night before my first homecoming when you taught me how to dance?
Yes I remember. I hope she appreciated all my hard work
I wish I had a different story to tell
I seem I have drifted fairly far away from what you taught me
You were always the (indecipherable)
I'll admit there hasn't been much to smile about since, since you left
I didn't leave, I fought for five years to stay at your side
What do you remember about that night?
I remember a family that loved their wife and mother very much.
How can you say that?
We were liars
We clung to those songs like we so desperately wanted to Cling to you.
Then I don't think you heard the same song I did
You had to know I was lying
You had to know how much I hated myself for smiling like a fool
For spending our last few minutes together deceiving you
Matthew, your smile on the face of your (grey) spirit was the greatest gift a mother has ever received from her child
I miss you
I know."
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