Riktigt namn:
They dont call me cat for nothin Civilstatus:
Upptagen
Läggning:
Homosexuell
Intresse:
Hemligt
Bor:
Kartong
Politik:
Politik?
Dricker:
Energidricka
Musikstil:
Inte valt
Klädstil:
Inte valt
Medlem sedan:
2013-10-10
Okej jag har ändrat mitt dejting ideal, no skinny E-bodys. Jag vill ha killar som är mer muskulösa, meningen för muskulös han gymar helt enkelt c:
Visst emo's är heta som in i heeeeellllvvveeeeettttteeee ! , men eftersom att jag bara väger 62kg är pinnsmall typ så vill jag ha någon som ÅTMINSTONDE kan lyfta mej i sim famn och bära runt mej i 5 minuter utan att bli skakis i armarna efter sekunder ~
Nej jag är inte ytlig, bara det att jag har tröttnat på det gammla vanliga, liksom om ni fattar vad jag menar ;)
Så kanske ett smått muskulöst emo, tatueringar (chest piece) piercings etc etc
We should've had sex, i had a chans to conecti with you at an whole other level i wanted to but i hesitated for a second and blew it al in a few minutes. I thought he would think of me diffirentley, think of me as thise sex partner Only there to please him, there for him Only. I am but not like that, i love him i dont want to have sex sex sex. I fear that if we do have sex he Will lose interst in me, stop loveing me like he does.
Old faces of my past, i am constantly reminded of how your company shaped who i am today. That school, Christianety, freze-friendship (meaning your Only friends in school and nothing more, a casual hello is al you get outside it) but i havent change really, Im still mr fun the clown the mirror of your every mouve, i save the finer Words in my wardrobe of Words, for the serious, and the funny twisted once for you C- observers. I find no joy in thise "put on a show" kind of relationship.
I find it increadeabley tireing, but if i change you'd think there's something wrong, that ive gone blue, just sad and deprest. I hate it that you see me in one way and in that way Only, sure Im corky, fun and stupid, cute and evil i have al of the emotions locked and loaded, ready to ame set and SHOOT. Its ME ME ME. Al about me getting your SMILES in return as payment,
I dont collect on them its just that i like to see them ~
I love so much and so many people that i forget my self and how to love my being ~
Im friends with the monster under my bed, get along with the voices in my head, its alright okay ? Im fine i got thise. Im no prinsess that needs to be saved, Im the mother fucking QEEN i got thise shitt handled dont worrie about me.
I drink i smoke, get high role around in the clouds for a minute Im free but then i fall back down to earth i heard you called me crazzy, sure go ahead judge me just remember to stay perfect for the rest of your life. Got something to say ? SAY IT TO MY FUCKING FACE, you big muda fucking B
Clowns, can you see me now ? Now that ive hidden my Face behind this mask. I spend houers and houers with fixing it up, where ever i turn i need a mirror to be there ready for me to see. Clowns al around me, see what ive become, see that i am one of you now that i can be myself in thise group. In between these for walls i can act on my own emotions, the class clown~
Like after an intoxicadeing drink, i start to wabble, i struggle with my vocabulary. The sound that comes out doesnt make any sence when Im around you, i try not to come of like an total idiot, i try to portray my self as that goofy clas clown everybody loves and hates so much.
I just want you to like me, so i try to distract your eyes with the made up cuteness i posses. I blind you with it and steal sa kiss or to. Im not trying to trick you Im simpley just helping you to see that i need you to be mine, that i need you to take care of me ~
When a star blinks at you, is it the universe trying to tell you someone is about to die ? I feel like its something wrong when they do. Like when you just told a lie to some one you love, everything isnt right well its more wrong then it would be right in thise world. I just wish i could know what it is thats wrong ~
Potential in it al, wishing, its the same thing as wanting so I just need to get going with al my strength to make it.
Just wokenupp, slept the hole day. So what ? I can if i want to, i mean Im still fading (away) a little but its less now then it wer before.
I love, i hate Im feeling al confuesed. Do you love me or not ? Why dont you love me ? When i make me so damn easy to love, so easy for you to miss me.
I feel like i should tell you that i L-O-V-E you, but i dont know if it'll help your feelings blossom faster or just slow it al down even more.
When the dark falls down, and Im al alone i try to talk to you but no answer ? Fading (away) agin.
Im a bitch moost of the time, a trainwreck you know, i dont know what Im doing Im a puzzle yes but there are some pieces missing. Could you help me find them ? Oh you can ? Im a host of imperfection, but you see past al that. Im the QEEN- B of wierdness and stupidety but you see past al that.
Thats Why i love you , i love you because your love lets me be me, lets me be my self and i hope you can do the same around me. Despite the edges, the croucket corners and fcracks of your face,ni feel that we are perfect, meny to be S.O.S needed love.
