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it's been 2 weekends that I've been going out and then going home with bruises all over my body

Drank beer with Andrew and Maarten in tensta
Went to Wknd with Andrew Love Tindra
It sucked so we left
Got an incident with guards and cops
Cried for about 2 hours
Got banned from the subway
Love picked me up so I felt good again
Went to mmmmm
Met my ex and felt guilty
Got happy again
Danced
Made out
Stole a beer
And so many more shit that I don't remember

Dishonesty

I just got home and I'm sedated as fuuuuck
lying in my bed and being very itchy and I just wanna cuddle someone and talk for hours n hours n hours ughhhhh

today I've done nothing productive but in some hours I'm gonna go over to Love (hatarmig)s place and cut his hair and then we're gonna go see Keiji Haino!!
I'm thinking about sedating the fuck out of myself? I think it would be nice

I just wanted to bless you with this very cute picture of old Kevin Shields<3

and here I'm gonna take u all the way there and bless u with this very blessed song


if this post didn't make your day much much better nothing else will<3<3

Bring back witch house :(

I'm so tired of everyone giving me guilt for breaking up with my ex...
Why can't people try to look at it from another perspective that me leaving him because I'm selfish??
I'm so sick of this! No it's not my fault that I fell out of love and it's not my fault that he's not feeling well and him abusing stuff is not my fault either but I feel like everyone just putting all this guilt on me is slowly getting to me and I'm starting to feel like shit all the time
I'm also sick of my mom telling me that I destroyed a perfect relationship and I'm never gonna have a better relationship than I had with him and her being skeptical and hating every person I'm gonna date because he was such a special snowflake to my parents
I didn't mean for any of these to happen all I want is to dig a hole and burry myself in it I'm so tired of everything

just made a list of all the good spooky movies perfect for halloween which I'm gonna try to watch during October

so it would be gr8 with company to watch some of them, we could make pumpkin soup or pumpkin pie or all the pumpkin related dishes and watch some of these movies!!

P.s maybe some cemetery walks?