I can't

I'm so tired of everyone giving me guilt for breaking up with my ex...
Why can't people try to look at it from another perspective that me leaving him because I'm selfish??
I'm so sick of this! No it's not my fault that I fell out of love and it's not my fault that he's not feeling well and him abusing stuff is not my fault either but I feel like everyone just putting all this guilt on me is slowly getting to me and I'm starting to feel like shit all the time
I'm also sick of my mom telling me that I destroyed a perfect relationship and I'm never gonna have a better relationship than I had with him and her being skeptical and hating every person I'm gonna date because he was such a special snowflake to my parents
I didn't mean for any of these to happen all I want is to dig a hole and burry myself in it I'm so tired of everything