Journey to Breakdown

I remember that warm feeling you had when all was ok, when nothing mattered but friends.
Friends, they were everything, but to this day I shall promise my self and my self alone, frienship hurts
worse than love, although, love started my journey to breakdown.
I remember what love was when I loved Marika, but today I don't know what I feel for her.
I cheated on her, but only 'cause she did it towards me, and thought it was "just for fun, it's nothing serious" so I did the same, she was making out with My all the time, you can see it on her photos Skitunge_N.
So on New years eve I was sleeping over at Helenas place, she doesn't like when you call her Helena but
I always knew her as Helena so whatever. It was me, her, Eli and Victor, while the others were sleeping
we were making out and shit, and 2 days later some shit happened and it ended with Helena telling Marika and she just went through the roof.

Now they're all dissing me.

As I am left alone in this world of missery I've realised that I can't win them back.
Tried I have, failed I have.

Now I seek truth, I seek not revenge, I seek justice.

With nothing left I wonder this place, punished and chained inside myself.
Hiding it is pointless, results will be me having a mental breakdown.

I am already broken down.


The Journey to Breakdown that of wich I am wondering in might never end, I just hope that there will be light
to guide me 'till the end.

As I walk alone I say goodby to those of wich claimed to be my friends who might one day grow up one day.

Forgiving Helena as she told Marika before I could. So that everything is my fault.
Though I can't blame Helena doing what's right, but then everything turning against me is what breaks me down. As she did as much wrong as I did.


I continue The Journey to Breakdown. . .