Intrusive thoughts?

Don't fight it or try and supress it. Depending on what it is, allow yourself to act out on it. Do whatever impuls is there. What happend when you did it? How did it make you feel? Whatever it is, write it down in detail. Every. Single. Detail. For yourself.
What you feel and what you think and why. And what you essentially feel the urge to do about it.

Give yourself that permission to feel whatever it is that is inside you. Because that is how you take away it's effect and power over you when you face and acknowledge it. To actually be there for yourself and listen when no one else is. When they can't see or hear or understand any of it.

If you feel like you are losing your mind and going to explode well let it out. Scream. Find a safe outlet for yourself.
Even if it might be something like edge play. Set it up to be a safe space. Where you can breathe and face everything and act out for those thoughts.

The key is balance. To embrace it all. The void and the darkness and the emptiness and overwhelm and all of it.

And to let the light in.

The more you go about not fighting it. The more you'll lose interest in doing these thing to act out an intrusive thought.

It is when you no longer are able to feel or think or react or act out and to rebel and fight that it is worrysome.

Once you stop caring about things and go numb. That is what is dangerous. The apathy. The silence.

And the avoidance. Bc it is going to stay right there deep within you no matter how much you shut it up or avoid it.

It starts with you. To heal, you need to listen inwards not outwards. That is when you lose yourself. When you seek it all in others.

Be true to yourself. Be there for yourself. Fight for your own sake. Live for yourself. It is your life.

The road to be able to see and feel your selfworth isn't going to be easy. Life sucks. People=shit. But. Because of this you will have to go through it all.

There is no shortcut and exit. That exit? Is permanent for ending this life. But your soul is undying and it will be put back into life until you learn and evolve. So buckle up.
Because healing and dealing with stuff is a crazy rollercoaster. This until now? It's just been that bumpy ride.

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Whatever it is you are going through. It is time to rewire your nervous system. Reprogram your mind. Tune into and tap into your inner power.

Because no matter how dark things might seem, that escape isn't going to be the solution.

That is just to post-pone it all.

Use that anger, use that frustration and all of it to say fuck this. I am going to go from survival into thrival out of spite.

Wake up!

It's time to start living not just existing. To not just be in a survival mode but to find yourself and hone and respect and love and see and hear and listen to yourself.

Just start by saying ok. Whatever stuff is in your mind like a commentator for everything. Say okay, I hear you, I acknowledge that you feel this way. Right now I can't fix it all but I am going to try. And try and try again and fail and fall and get back up again.

You need to do this climb. Noone can save you but yourself. No one will help. That's how fucked up things are in this hell we live in.

You start to accept and embrace it? Damn. You start to think in a different way in terms of manifestations of what is going to be included in your new normal?

Trust me, the Universe will align and do it's magic. You don't have to believe in it. But whether you do or not we all have a soul mission and life purpose. It's time for you to align with what that is for you.

But you are not alone in all this.

Ask for help and you shall receive it. No need to even define who or what you ask. Just ask for help for your highest good. Wheather it is Lucifer or Bastet or your spirit guides or the Universe it is doing some hocus pocus stuff for your sake to help you for you to help yourself.

And maybe you are meant to stay in order to help someone else going through stuff. We are all connected, everything is. You just need to start to zoom out and see things from a different view.