twitching palm

I usually don't hold a grudge for to long, you must have done something real serious for me not to forgive you. And if you have then don't you fucking dare come waltzing in my house, pretending like nothing has happned. Because I can and probably will make you learn your place and remind you of why you are not allowed in.

My former best friend is one of those who I'll never forgive, and the fact that she didn't listen when I warned her of ever setting a foot in the same room or house as me ever again. Just made it all worse, now she's with my mother acting all angel like and i have to take her shit just because if I don't i'll get beaten half to death.

I've maximized both my calmatives and my meds against anxiety, just to deal with having her in the nearby room. But my palm is twitching and my mind is overthinking all kind of scenarios.