i just wanna die!!

We have touched for the last time
You are long gone, in love with someone else
I now fear nothing but life itself
And I have learned that living is just a slow way to die
I do not believe in life or in love anymore
The joy I feel are the joys of the emptiness
I hate myself for loving you
The fear I feel night after night has developed into a disease
No one can see the emptiness in my eyes
To escape life itself now seems the only solution
With relief I look forward of letting go of the pain
Finally, there is peace in my soul
To lie dead without a concern, without a tear,
You own my heart
And life without you is so imensly painful
Just to think of you, talk about you, dream of you makes tears stream down my face
I cannot imagine happiness without your beautiful smile, your angelic face,
your wonderful body and your good heart
You are everything, I am nothing
I want to die
But really, I am already dead