sorry....

Thought I were stronger than this, thought that I'd made improvements. That a little thing like this wouldn't affect me.
But still you need to understand, that it's a sensitive spot for me.
Cos you know that I can't barley be around him without the fear of saying something that will ruin it all, but still I always want to be with him.
And yeah, it may be a pathetic little thing, but I can't help the way I react to things.
And seriously, I'm jealous of you. You can talk with him about what ever you want, you can say that random little things that I once could too. You can hang out with him, ALONE, which I could never do.
So accept the fact that I'm jealous of you, cos you can be so good friend with the person I like, care for and would give my life for. While I stand where I've always stood, feeling little, jealous and so fucking pathetic.
So i'm sorry, but this is how pathetic little me reacts.

The world's doing just fine
Without me