The world and me in between

I still live I still breathe.
My life is a giant clusterfuck.
Fate has tested me many times.
And I have survived.

For 10 years I've lived a lie to myself.
And now I live in fear.
This is an era of both acceptance and unacceptence.
Europas future is dark and rutten.

To judge someone before meeting them.
To see some people as a mass of one problem.
Not giving respect to the individual.

They say that the strong shall live and the weak shall die.
In my head, If that's their thought, then they're only beasts.

Then there's the ''Survival of the fittest'' This can't be judged by equippment and technology alone.
Take the bush folk. Their hunters can run after a prey for three days or more without food and water to catch their pray. Now that's what I call fit.

Even in this era I am stuck as I feel like both a man and a women in one body and It's kinda unaccepted. I want an operation to become both and all I get to hear is - no that's not possible... I just want to slit my wrist every time I hear it because I don't want to hear that there's a problem, cause If there Is... SOLVE IT!!!

Now I know how Pooh bear feels... Think think... Think think...