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I forgot to upload this little thing...


... n' say that the live was great. Even got a little soft when Taka started talking about how music had brought us all together. Real cool to see their first performance in London, spec when they played at such a small venue compared to what their used to in Asia. Might be a sucker for saying it but I really wish all bands only played at small venues... nothing compares to it.

Oh... and Ryota didn't wear a shirt... none what so ever... that was all.

peace.

I take a breath
One step forward, two steps back
Lately I don't feel like me, but who else would I be?

Watched Frankenweenie for the second time, first time being at a film festival in Norway - some off the animators who worked with the movie was there and I cried. [like-embarrassing] I really love that movie in the sense that you get to see Tim Burton's old style, its kind of like watching his drawings come to life or something... but jesus... the ending? Common. It's horrible. I mean it starts off building up to this really 'deep' metaphor of the importance of letting things go and excepting that things we love will die at some point - to then turn right over and go all American Hollywood crap. Seriously Disney... enough with the happy endings. Life can suck sometimes and that's OK.

Also... I found out that there is such a thing as a colibri moth and I think that is amazing.

I went to Gbg and came back with a cold, so now I'm tucked in to the sofa wasting time with a cup of tea ~
Guess that's why I'm sitting here now writing... anyroad (mmh ffxiv: arr you corrupt me <3) I've been wanting to just draw something pretty for a while now. N I got this little assignment from a friend, to draw him, but my lack of focus made it hard to finish that project up tonight... so I finished a rougher doodle of some random creature of my imagination who turned out to be quite the fairy looker.



not too bad... for a doodle. Now I'm gonna continue with my tea and maybe play some ffxiv:arr if I manage to drag both me and the blanket over to the big pc without falling over and ending up something like this:



peace~

Why do I always feel
like I'm waiting to begin?

If you didn't know I'll tell you... it takes a lot to tick me off. But when my bf's mother calls in soul purpose to tell him to block his 'gay pride' likes on facebook so she wont have to face peoples comments about her being a mother of a homosexual... and then have the nerve to say it was for him? To keep him safe from peoples comments? Fuck no.

I respect her, in fact I think she is lovely, but it's this that I hate about facebook. People make it too personal. It's just life, get over it. GUHGA.




[This pic has nothing to do with nothing - just some work for my parents Art shop that I'm hoping to sell. Aka I'm painting agaiiin ~ yay!]

It's kind of impressive how taking your place in this world really has nothing to do with how many people see the steps you take or how many suckers got their hands wrapped around your legs.

To be honest, frank and easy; I'm so freaking happy right now. AND I DON'T EVEN CARE IF NO ONE IN THIS ENTIRE WORLD READS THIS CRAP. it's just thoughts that come running down from the base of my head and frankly I'm happy the world has better things to do than to feed my ego. All that matters right now is the smile on my freaking lips and the feeling of FINALLY finding those pieces I was desperately digging for just last year... I am becoming COMPLETE and fuck it feels good.

Hope you can do the same if you haven't already.

Five years from now I plan to be smiling about something else. Best. Plan. Ever.

PEACE.

[ Ellie Goulding ]
Human behave yourself,
you have burst at the seams
let it all fall out open your mouth
often I lie wide awake,
think of things I can make
but I don’t seem to have the parts to build them
Human I wonder why you’re a better make than I could ever build or create,
you know not love or hate
I am so scared of what will kill me in the end for I am not prepared,
I hope I will get the chance to be someone,
to be human,
look what we’ve done,
look what we’ve done

I would give my life, to be human x4

Human I’m trying to come clean,
I will be a better me,
I will not drink until I’m dead
I’ll make the most of it.
I don’t know what it’s like to be alive,
to say goodbye,
to cry a thousand tears because my ears won’t listen

Human I’m trying not to lose my faith in you,
I’ve sussed out all that I’ve seen through,
I’ve sailed an ocean

I am so scared of what I’ll look like in the end for I am not prepared,
I hope I will get the chance to be someone
to be human,
look what we’ve done,
look what we’ve done

I would give my life, to be human x4

I used to hear it all so loud,
the sound of my heart breaking.
The truth is waiting to be found,
I trust that I will take it

I would give my life, to be (human) x8

Can't wait. 26/10/2013.